HELP ME ! I CANNOT STOP MYSELF!

 The darkness is painful .

I keep seeing the red light blinking but I  keep walking towards the darkness.

I  know it is not right yet I cannot stop myself.

I can see the tragic end yet I wonder if the end would change.

The curiosity eats me up alive

I keep trying to pull myself from the path of darkness yet my legs keep dragging me towards it .

Is this how inhaling drugs feel like?

Your angelic face constantly seduce me to the darkness.

I keep losing myself after seeing your face - OUT OF CONTROL !

Your thorn hurts me so badly yet it makes me feel alive too.

Sometimes i feel like an idiot for letting myself get hurt.

All i can do is laughing at myself

HEY,you only live once so why not do everything i want even if it is risky and going to ruin me??

I JUST CANNOT STOP ME although everyone ask me to stop

Their words falls on my deaf ears.

All i want is embracing you although you are filled with thorns.

However,someone should probably bring me to the light before I end up killing myself from the ecstasy of your thorns

Please stop being so delusional about love!

 I observed that most people really expect way too much about love especially from someone that they just knew.

For example ,most people expect you to text them day and night when you just knew them.That's what people do for someone that they like/attracted to.Why do you expect a mere stranger to do that much for you when you aren't even attractive or close to being attractive ? If you want someone to be crazy about you ,you gotta serve certain trait that is attractive to them -there is no free meal in this world ! Even falling in love takes time duh.

Most people would say "love me for my personality ".How a mere stranger be in love with you without even knowing much about you?Also,most people have real life to deal with instead of texting 24/7.Sometimes people just want to rest or be alone -you know?I really can't understand people who got mad just because I do not text every min.Sometimes i just want to focus on watching drama or do my skincare with hair routine.

For god 's sake,be realistic and stop expecting alot from a mere stranger.Life is more than being obsessed with romance .

Why we must be more careful when we are dealing with those whom we love?

 

Recently ,i watched a famous dating show from China named 非成物绕 or fei cheng wu rao. I heard the host said something which is extremely meaningful. The host said that we should be more careful while talking to our loved ones because people who love us would take our words or behavior seriously which means that it could alleviate or worsen their mood.

Even worse when it can cause trauma.Most people who are traumatized often say that they are traumatized by the incident which is related or caused by people who are close or dear to them.Most of the time ,they end up hating such their loved one who caused such trauma since the opposite of love Isn't hatred but it is indifference .

Sure,dictionary claimed that opposite of love is hatred .However , most of the time,people end up hating those whom they loved due to the wrongdoing that they did.The stronger the love that someone feel , the more the hatred will be produced by the trauma caused by someone who is dear to them since they feel that their trust and love is betrayed.Futhermore,they will feel very dissapointed and insecure with close relationship. Those who are vengeful regarding it would end up revenge using the private info that they knew about those that they loved.Revenge works better when you are close to your enemy.At the other side,it causes huge emotional damage to the person who is traumatized by their loved one.Many end up being unable to open up and trust other people easily.This makes them being unable to form good relationship with others.Not to mention that it could cause various type of illness such as depression,ptsd,anxiety etc.It is extremely hard for someone to improve their mental health once they get mental illness.

Action or words can be done easily but the consequence is heavy and can't be changed.Always be mindful while doing anything to avoid bad consequence to yourself nor anyone else.

How to become an attractive man? (not really about being hansome.can be used even if ugly)

 

There are certain aspects about being an attractive man from look ,personality ,talent and mouth.

As a girl,i would briefly tell you on what i heard from other girls and my opinion on it.

1)look

You do not have to be very fashionable.All you need to do is looking clean and neat.It is embarassing to be with someone who is sloppy lol.You cannot expect your partner to look good while you choose to be sloppy lmao.That is being entitled lmao.Do remember to do skincare and hair care too.A man with nice hair and skin is very attractive.Also,your skin and hair reflects your health level.Image matters.Being clean is very important .

2)personality

-be talkative. Communication is very important

.Saying things out make life easier especially if it concerns about feeling since nobody is a mindreader.

-always reply on time.Nobody likes to be ignored.

-Do not try so hard to please someone since it looks cringy.

-do not be egoistic.Relationship is about being vulnerable .Being egoistic makes you become dishonest .

3)talent

Talented men are very attractive .Many girls think that men who are good in dancing and playing basketball are cool.In high school,famous guys are usually the one who is good in playing basketball.They are even more popular if they are good in studying.Other talent that will be good are dancing ,singing ,playing music instrument ,cooking etc

4)mouth

This is a golden tip if you are ugly.I know some guys who are popular despite being ugly thanks to their mouth.

I had a senior who is really ugly ,tall and extremely skinny but he is very influential in school because he is very funny,often talk on stage in confident manner and being friendly with everyone .My previous schoolmate liked him so much that she took his picture silently and printed it out on a huge paper ~it was really shocking.

Plenty of other men are casanova thanks to their sweet words.Women just love sweet men who say sweet stuffs.Do watch more korean drama and learn from there.

STOP CONFUSING REGRETS WITH TRUE LOVE!

 lmao

I heard plenty of people say they cannot forget someone - it is usually like this 'I did not confess my love / he leave but I did not follow / she say she wants to break up but i did not disagree '

They keep thinking about the 'lover' all because of regrets .Then ,they like to act like they are Romeo / Juliet who has true love for someone lmao .Life has no 'if ' -It only has consequence .You have to appreciate every opportunity- what is so romantic about living in pain forever? Everyone have to move on.There will always be new people in life unless if you live in cave.

My so called pedophile ex had / has this habit of talking about his ex in Facebook all the time .I did not really know who is he talking about until he told me that he broke up with his 'internet girlfriend' after she asked for it before meeting her .All of this is caused by his cowardice - if he really loves her ,he should confess to her and ask her not to leave even if it hurts his ego .It is better to be hurt for short time instead of being in pain forever.Who knows if she might change her mind etc? Then he dragged me in this nonsense .Maybe i am just sadistic but usually i am very patient towards people whom i love including friends.I did everything to keep him beside me .I even moved to his school .After 5 years of endless pain ,i finally give up .Yes ,it hurts terribly but now I feel nothing anymore because there is no 'if' for me.Now he is just an ugly crazy guy for me .

I really have no feeling of being hurt towards anyone because I am patient .I only feel hurt towards one of my ex friend .I was moody one day - She tried to joke with me but i lashed out at her .I have huge regret towards her although i have no idea whether she loved me or not.I always wonder if we would still be together if I said sorry .Maybe we would have lots of fun if I said sorry .However ,life has no 'if ' and time cannot be turned back......

I really laugh when 'independent folks' think that they are very cool

 If they are really so cool, why most of them marry such man?

What is so cool being a free slave and sugar mummy at home? Are they really that smart to think that men who use them as free slave and sugar mummy really love them?It is so prideful to work as free slave? Isn't love about protecting and caring about others? What's the difference between mama leech and a mummy? Leech is clearly treating wife like his mum. Most of such men have zero ability to take care of themselves lmao. What is the point of getting a husband if he do nothing at home? Indirectly, such women are encouraging men to be like that-living with zero responsibility and empathy. A relationship without responsibility is just a shallow relationship. Most of such women eventually whine about being tired when they are the one emcouraging such behavior. Even worse when the hubby whine about the wife being ugly since she is too busy being free slave and sugar mummy so she got no time for herself lmao. Total disaster. Why only ask women to be independent anyway? Are men disabled or what? In fact, being too independent is a huge sign that she has huge fear of intimacy. Humans need to do lots of activity together and help each other to have a deep relationship. When you are doing everything by yourself, you are just keeping other people lazy at arm length. When I have close friends, I want them to rely on me. When they rely on me and vice versa, I feel loved and trusted. There is such phrase like this 'When you are loved, you feel protected. When you are loving someone, you become brave' (something like this if I am not mistaken) . Therefore, the ability to influence someone in a relationship is very important. What kind of influence do you have when you do everything by yourself? I once heard this funny story about this woman falling extremely sick when she is independent and don't want others to worry about her lmao-therefore she didn't ask anyone to take care of her. So what's the point of having relationship? So that people could enjoy relationship for free? Lel. Nobody can function all by themselves. Even billionaires need workers.Who would appreciate free slave anyway? People should stop buying everything that society says and think for themselves. Being stupid for love isn't true love-love in real life isn't like kdrama etc. Being stupid in love in real life mostly cost your whole life. Women aren't born to be men 's slave!!!!! 

regardless which race ,there are only a few types of men

.just talking according to my experiences of interacting with various men from various race

-the creep
guess i do not need to explain about this .they just like to harass people.


-the one who always reply late / ignore you no matter what

- the one who try hard to act cool
they think it is extremely cool to act like they aint interested in you despite asking you to be their gf / wife etc .they would never say something like 'i like you ,you are very pretty etc'

- the one who is weird
they tend to assume this and that about people .For example ,he might like you but he will never talk to you because he would assume that you will reject him / you are just a scammer etc.i have plenty of examples but i cannot remember now

-the prayer
they are usually 'very shy' and praying that girls whom they like would fall for them like crazy (although they put zero effort to be attractive ) and approach them first.

-the boring folk
they only know how to say 'hi,ok,i see'.they usually will ask nothing about you even if they approach you first

 in conclusion,most ppl are terrible regardless race